Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is to not stop questioning.
Albert Einstein

“Never regard study as a duty, but as the enviable opportunity to learn to know the liberating influence of beauty in the realm of the spirit for your own personal joy and to the profit of the community to which your later work belongs.”

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Some support please

So, i was at work a few months back when one of my co-workers started this tirade, in the middle of our hallway. She goes into this long bitter outburst about the younger staff members.
Most of us love this job, but for various personal reasons and personal growth, many of us have decided to go back to school.
You would think that she would praise us for our efforts, motivating us to advance in our nursing career, but no. Instead, she starts talking about loyalty, implying that we should have a sense of duty to this place because senior nurses have worked hard to train us. I understand her prospective, but that shouldn't hinder my motives for advancing my career. If you are satisfied with your current job, then let it be. There's nothing wrong with being a staff nurse, but if you are unhappy with your current position, you have the right to pursue other areas without having to be harangued at work by co-workers.
How about some support? encouragement?

What i wanted to say was:" why don't you mind your own business you old hog, bitterness leads to nothing"

Anyhow, i quit after that. Her tirade only motivated me, and has forced me to put in even more hours into studying.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

This is going to be a hell of as semester

Its only been a couple of weeks since we got back in session, and i can already tell that this is going to be a crazy semester, in part because, two of our anesthesia professors CAN NOT TEACH.

I'm not at all implying that they are horrible practicing anesthetists, but i simply think that they can not communicate well what they have been practicing. In fact, i now know one nurse who worked in the OR with the pharmacology professor. And apparently, he is a great anesthesia provider, but, man i tell you, teaching is not his thing. Maybe he would make a great preceptor. I swear, the more he talks the more confused i get. He goes off topic a lot; he'll start talking about one drug then he realizes that he mixed it up and wanted to tell us about another drug. He is an intelligent person, and might have great knowledge too. But conveying that knowledge it a whole different domain.

Then you have the other anesthesia professor, totally disorganized; all over the place and just a plain mess. I swear, that one needs psych meds ASAP. lets end it here. I'll tell you more about that one next time. I need to dedicate a whole entry to that one.

In contrast, my other professors are well organized, speak and communicate well, and absolutely perfect. Why cant they all be the same? Just make my life easier please. I've basically been living in the library these past couple of weeks, and barely had time to do anything else.

My class mates party like crazy. I swear, they're always hanging out, going to restaurants together. They always invite me, but i'm like we have so much work, and who the hell has time to go party like that. Am i missing something? i am to anal about school? One on them said that this is the "party semester." WOW. While I'm the library studying induction agents and benzos, they are having a hell of a time going to restaurants, and socializing.

So anyways, my social life is looking better these days. I still don't have time to hang out as much as i would like too, but the personal life is looking better too. Its hard to date when you have this load of work. lets see what happens.

That picture up there is from a recent trip out of town, a little R&R just before class started again. Its a man in statue like attire. I swear, i was so scared to get next to him. I have a fear of mimes. can you believe it? mimes? I swear something must have happened to me in early childhood. He was moving his body like a mime, and i just stood there frozen afraid to get close, but managed to get a pic before i darted out of there.

Peace out

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Student out

So, school is back in session, and getting ready for this new semester. New things to learn, new professors with some old ones from last semester. And one missing face.

Yup, one student is gone. Isn't that just sad. I mean i don't know the exact circumstances leading to this student decision to leave, or was he/she forced to leave, but anyhow, this person is gone.

Seriously, i don't want anyone to fail out of this program, nor am i saying that this person failed out. But apparently, he/she is going for the Nurse practitioner program now. All i can say is good luck to you, and i hope all works out for you.

It saddens me because, honestly you guys, i don't want to see people fail. I'm not competitive by nature, and i want to see others succeed. have never being competitive when it comes to school work, nor do i care to be.

This is how is see things.

I have my study buddy, the best person in the world. She keeps me in check. She completes me. Where i lack skills in, she excels and vice versa. I'm hard core, very hard core. When i start studying, i can go for hours. Some intense all out studying, i come up with crazy questions, i think outside of the box, and i challenge her. On the other hand, i tend to overdue it sometimes. That's where she comes in, she'll slow me down, and remind to take a brake, and if there's something Ive overlooked she's there to remind me. She likes the way i study, she says it pushes her.

At the same time, my buddy is very organized. I'm not as organized as she is, but I'm getting there. And that's where she excels, very organized. She's able to find previous students who've taken the course before and ask questions. And that's what i like about her.

Some days, i don't know what i would do without her, and some days she says the same about me.

So, i cant help feeling guilty or wondering what i could've done to help this person. I don't want to see other fail at their goals, its just who i am.

But it's back to focusing on this semester now, gonna start reading so that i don't fall behind, and if i do i know i have J there to push me, and again remind of my goals. What would i do without her.

On that note, I'm off to the library y'all

peace out

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Vacation is over

Yup, the end is near. Few more days, and its back to hard work. The brake was great while it lasted. But i must say that anesthesia was on my mind the whole time.

What is this coming semester going to be like?

Well, i feel energized and ready to take on the new.....

Stay tuned people......we'll see what happens

Wish me luck y'all